L A Z Y

am freaking not NOT not doing work but staying up late doing nothing

work have to be completed by june 29, 3 pm and yet am wasting time

wants to jump off a building and never care about work anymore

hate the job

hate working

HATES~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

L.O.S.T

title says it all....

total lost...

what should I do now??

i have absolutely no idea on revenue analysis...
i hope to simply do and fake the results...
but it's not working...

it's not easy...
i don't understand at all..

i'm tired and sleepy...
it's really frustrating.....

i'm disappointed and unmotivated...
i'm restless and helpless now...

have no idea how should i continue...
does it even work if i stay up till 5am and continue staring at the same results...

or should i just face boss...
tell him straight to his face...

sorry.....
but i can't complete my task...
just let him scold me...lecture me...
and get embarrassed.....

hide aside and cry??

What Should I DO??????????

=.-

I'm not able to concentrate or even start my work at all..working in IBM is really stressing me out! I feel that i'm going to fall apart soon.....soon.......soon

But why is this so?
Is this because i'm still new at work and i'm so lost..?
Is this because I don't have the skill and mindset to complete a task in the most efficient time..?
Is this because I don't have the passion in working at all..?

I feel extremely down and unwell thinking about work each day..each night..
without having a good time sleep.....

Why do i have to suffer all these?
Am I even suitable for this job.......?

I feel so unmotivated and confused...

What do I want actually??
What do I look for in a job??

I want to give up and just leave it all behind me..

I am even thinking ways to skip work....to fall sick....to do anything...




But work =.-

A Whole New World

...Needs to be in A whole new world

A new fantastic point of view...

...A dazzling place that Takes me wonder

On a magic carpet ride...

...Needs to be somewhere

That's crystal clear...

...To show me the right path in life

Thinking and dreaming...

...Through an endless diamond sky

A hundred thousand thoughts in my head...

...Hope it gets better for I'll chase my dreams anywhere

For i'm young..

...There's time to spare

I need a whole new world out there...